I felt horrible one day and this was the dream I had that night come on people i need sum consrtructive critisism on these things!!!

I cant believe i fell for this It was such a lie Slowly my heart is blackening Deep down inside The love I thought he had for me Was just sum paid for act I cant believe he did this Him, his friends and their pact They toyed with my heart And now its breaking more As I write these words I lay crying on the floor I look around the room My eyes rest on a blade I shouldn't have done this Just for being played The truth is just this, Its been building more each day This pain thats inside my chest Ive been hiding it in every way My friends hav tried to talk to me But ignored them, I have I've come to a fork in the road And I must choose a path One is light and filled with faces Smiling and beckoning me The other is duller i think But a pull towards it I see It's a path that involves going back And facing all my new fears Getting up off the cold hard floor And wiping up my tears I want to go the other way But realize that I can't I want to just go back and hide While my face burns red and hot Slowly I see the ceiling Of my outdated room I sit up and suddenly I'm filled gloom I see the blood Covering the floor I should clean it But i dont care anymore I think to myself I have to do this And prove it to myself That I wont be some lifeless toy A guy can put on his old shelf I get up and clean my wrists Then look at my face in the mirror I clean it off and then I think My option couldn't be clearer Don't make guys The most important thing Find someone eventually That makes you sing With passion and happiness That is my new goal It'll help me turn things around It'll help me cleanse my soal....