i'm back after a long rest from everything

i still cant believe i did it. i was so scared. well at least its done. i havnt been on the site for a little while. i probably shouldve stayed on so i could talk to someone. i dont know why people at school reacted so offensive to me this time around. they were okay with me being pregnant before so why is this time so different. needless to say ive had some hard times the past weeks. ive pretty much lost all my friends at school and everywhere else. so i guess seperating myself from everything was not a good idea. ive changed a lot and know most people cant recognize me anymore. i look completelly different. maybe thats a good thing. now maybe people wont refer to me as the girl that got pregnant again. i hope i can get through this. i guess now people wont point at my stomach and laugh at me. bad thing is that my parents wont look at me anymore. no not because i look different but because they think im going to hell. they were the ones that were so disappointed in me for getting pregnant. would they rather be ashammed of being the parents of the pregnant girl. make up your fuckin mind already. people suck. life suck. i dont see how anyone can be happy. cause i definitely am not. i just dont wanna live anymore