so many complications and I have no idea what to do....plz help me......

well it's the new year and we are already in March....so far my year is not goin' the way that I want...:-(.....I had plans to go see Criss this summer and now with the way things r goin' it doesn't look like I will be getting that chance...I have so many complications goin' on and I really dont know who to talk too....It all started with my son....and dealing with the court system....and trying to fight and get him back into my home....now its my taxes....I filed my taxes and now I'm not getting a single penny back.....:-(.....that was gonna pay for me to meet Criss....so now that dream is down the drain until I can figure something out....It's been over a year since I last worked....I cant seem to find a job....I was planning to go meet Criss and also put applications in over there while I was there....so that I can make a fresh start...I would like to get some opions if anyone has any.....(now) I'm tryin' to get into the Navy Reserves, then finish school....I want to go into Criminal Justice....so I guess we will have to wait to see where that will take me....but plz I still would like to know what ur opions r on this very complicated and heart breaking topic....thank you....