poem that tells a story about what I should've done a long time ago

These two words burned through my soul

darkness, depression, regret

A reminder of something I should've done

but, shyness persued me

and now nothing can fill the emptiness within

and the void can never be healed

I lived my whole life and I only remember that one day that ruined it all

To some risk means nothing but, to me it cost me my life, my heart and my soul out of anxiety

Everyone is now shipped off at sea to the rest of their lives

while i'm stuck on the shore with only two words left in my brethless voice

"what if"

I drop to my knees and watch everyone else disappesr into the sunset

and i close my eyes

waiting for the pain to numb

but it will always eat away at me till the day i die

I open my eyes

and im back in the classroom

with a boy standing there in front of me

impatiently waiting for my answer

I take a deep breathe

"yes"