Sye_CoticaMindFreak's Blog
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September 10, 2008Hey loyals hear's a little bout my story. why i got in to criss and how he inspired me.
Well i was always pestemistic and i thought i was this ugly horrible person that people made me seem like. I eventualy gave in and my first boyfriend was an ass whole who hurt me and hit me. The only reason why i stayed with him was cuz he made me feel like he was the onli person who would feel sorry enough for me to be with me. eventualy i grew tired. got my revenge, and moved on. i was a little friendlyer but i still felt like an ugly horrible person.
Then i met the love of my life who is none other than David Luis Deleon. He tried to teach me to accept how pretty i was then i realised, im ok. then we got together after all the drama between his ex and i.
after a year and some months i felt depressed like i couldnt trust him cuz of the past that happened. It wasnt his fault but i couldnt help it. After all the supressed feelings bottled up inside i just wanted to kill myself. i told god,"if there isnt a reason why i shouldnt kill myself let it happen now." i had already drunk a bottle of vodka and took a bottle tylenal and started half of perkesets used for my moms pain. im surpriesed i wasnt dead yet. then i wanted to kill off the rest but my bro was knocking on the door. and had got a few things then left. i was going to finnish me off till criss came on tv. he explained if he can get out of any horrible thing u can think of putting him in, we can deal with that teacher who is hard on us or that unfair boss at work or life when its going down. we just have to BELIEVE. That word means so much to me it till this verry day i thank god for it and thank god for giving me david.