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December 1, 2008

I am never understood. I try and still no one can get what I'm about. For those of you that dont get me open your eyes and realize I am like you just......misunderstood

Many times in my life I've had to apologize for things I havent done. At times I've done nothing wrong. For saying what needed to be said but others didnt want to hear the truth. My opinions dont matter to you, my thoughts are ignored, my "feelings" mean nothing to you, everything I say goes in one ear and out the other. Yet when I am myself you dont approve of me and expect me to say sorry. "Sorry, for what? sorry for being me? sorry for being human? I'm tired of being sorry. You may see the world in light and darkness, black or white its not that simple. I live in a WORLD OF GRAY and thats what allows me to do things others just cant do, thats allows me to say things others just cant or choose not to say. Thats what allows me to fail and GET BACK UP! You see I've lived my whole life off pure "emotion." From now on this "emotion" this frustration, this anger, this rage, this reck-less-ness and insanity is exactly what will beat" all of you. Those who have wronged me those who chose not to accept me for me. You who took that what was once mine and never allowed me to have it back ever again. And those that knew yet decided to stick that knife right in my back. This is now my time

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    • Photo of DestinedDreamsDesigns DestinedDreamsDesigns
      DestinedDreamsDesigns
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      I can't and I won't live a lie...no, not this time!
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      Posted 1 year ago by DestinedDreamsDesigns

      AMEN, could NOT have put it better! Permission to print it out, hang it on my door, and see if my parents take the cue?

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      not going to renew my membership time to move on to other things i will spport criss in my own way
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      Posted 1 year ago by passions

      you should get a live journal it's really good

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      heartbroken and tear-stained
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      Posted 1 year ago by Alexandrea

      wow hun thats great, the whole "there is no black and white it's all grey" is my life motto no joke. really this posting is fantastic :) really great wording and everything. god its amazing good job luv ~alex

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      Adrian , MI
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      Hate me or love me. It won't break me or make me!
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      Posted 1 year ago by punk2012

      This is so true. It's really nice writting.

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      VanityAngel
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      Riverview, FL
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      As soon as my membership is used up (May 13th), I'm leaving! Sorry Loyals... =(
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      Posted 1 year ago by VanityAngel

      I hope I'm one of those people that accept you for who you are... oh wait, I AM, hehe. I love you and I'm glad you put this up. People need to know what you're thinking about sitations like this. VA<

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      Posted 1 year ago by angel319

      Do you! Everyone has the right 2 do what they choose 2 do. Ur only human. If they dont get, they never will. B true 2 urself :)

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      The Valley of Death, CA
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      I dont want the world to see me...cuz i dont think that theyd understand.
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      Posted 1 year ago by sorcerer0

      my friend,you are swallowed by your EMOTIONS. such as anger fear and jealousy.you should learn how to turn off your emotions. so noone can hurt you anymore...and i DO understand you

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      miss my loyal friends and family
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      Posted 1 year ago by mabellene

      u just be who you are. thats what makes you special. there will always be people that don't agree with you or judge you. forget about them. you know who your true friends are, and they will except you and respect you for that. people were like that with me. i always tried to please people and it got me no where. so if people don't like the way i am, then move on down the road. loyal mabellene

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      jessie_lov169108
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      new london, CT
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      ~~The haunting Journey inside the mind of Criss Angel, +Believe+
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      Posted 1 year ago by jessie_lov169108

      u need to challenge urself, stop beating urself up, i accept u in and out and i know how that feels when people just step on u, control that and u will be fine trust me. Loyal~Jessie

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      You raise me up so I can stand on mountains. You raise me up to walk on stormy seas...
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      Posted 1 year ago by LadyOmega

      Kiddo, does it matter who understands and who doesn't? Does channeling the anger and frustration solve the problem, or would self-motivation be better served through using the gamut of your emotions - good, bad, indifferent, to channel YOU the person? I think that's where you're headed. Just keep a level head, stay in your zen, and you'll be good. Sometimes it helps to take cues from your elders who stay on the cool side. Know what I mean? Love ya. xoxo