I've started over. Same concept, different form.

It started off...like movie. With images fading in and out all very surreal but not enough for my liking. I've been inspired by images from photobucket and this concept that I've had and been trying to put down on paper has mutated several times. All taking on different forms but all the same in context. Criss' character and purpose never changes but everything else does. I've tried traveling thru the human pysche but didn't like what I came up with. I'm getting better at incorperating Criss' demonstrations from Mindfreak into my story. Inspired by several episodes, in my first draft my and Criss' characters were caught in a lightning storm (inspired by Tesla Coil), Criss' character is struck and goes blind (inspired by the Blind ep in season 1) and from then on sees by using his senses and me as a guide. I tried and tried again but each time I left myself less satisfied then before. I have given up that attempt but it is still saved on my laptop. When I can I will post it. It is very beautiful and I put my heart and soul into it but its just not what I wanted so I'm starting over. I belong to FanFiction.net. When I get a flashdrive I'll be able to post a few of my stories there. I'm a very visual person, I like to imagine and when i see something a certain way I become obsessed with getting my vision across to others and sometimes it becomes tedious and I just have to let go. For writting my motto is "Nothing is ever simple" and that's true. If you knew what I put into my writings you'd understand my passion. Every single sentance is painstakinly written, rewritten, reread and revised over and over again. I let nothing rest until I am completely satisfied even then I'll go over it all again. It sounds like hell and sometimes it is but I love every second. You see, I live estranged from reality, its almost a bit of a psycosis I have. What I see and how I experience it is why I write. I take peices from my reality and I show them to you. I enjoy visual things. If I had a film crew and cast at my disposal I would video all my ideas. I would actually prefer that cuz what I see could never simply be put on paper. It would never convey everything but I do whatever I can. I plan to find some way to get the inspiration from BElieVE down on paper but it might take a while. In the mean time I dabble at my few Twilight fics and whatever other half baked stories I have.