love complaints

i have learned my things in the short time that i have been alive. Love is the hardest thing you'll ever face. I meant how do you know when you have it and how do you keep it. i donno that i have yet to figure out. my thing is i have found it but have had to put it aside because I'm freakin' chicken to really don't know how to take my kids with me on this journey. just for the record I am begining to believe i am toxic and no man could really be happy with me. all ihave done is pained everyone.