Is forever just a dream or or a promise of the future....

Some nights i will lay awake unable to sleep thinking about life and all that comes with it. Have i made the right choices in life.... maybe or maybe not. Life is so short to be wrong in life but yet if we do not take chances or live every day as though it were our last day on earth then we may end up missing some thing that we other wise would have found. They say you never really know how much you miss some thing untill it's gone. To the one who first used that saying i bow gracefully before you because that saying could never be more true. I do wonder some times will the things i have lost ever find there way back to me or will they just simply vanish into thin air and become echoes in the winds of time. Can you trust some one when they make you a promise or is it just words to sooth and comfert you? Is there really a such thing as true happiness or is it just some thing we all long for in life. I often have the same dream over and over and over again. A dream of me and my kids playing on the beach and my soul mate sitting beside me letting me know that life is now perfect but every time i try to her face my dreams never show me who it is. Is fate teasing me with the dream of never seeing the face or is fate just keeping it a surprise? Who knows only time shall tell but untill then i will take each day as though it were my last and love every single moment and for who ever the hauntingly beautiful ghost is my dreams perhaps i shall see you soon.