I'm not sure if it's because my mom and I didn't get along today, or because I am going to a concert tomorrow, or because I'm still in a crappy job with no money wondering how I am ever gonna make it to Vegas but I can't sleep! So in effort to keep myself

I'm laying in bed, shuffling from one thought to another....tossing and turning. I am playing out senarios in my head...."what would I do if..............??????" Whay can I do???? Right now I am trying to figure out what I am doing wrong. I believe things aren't going my way because I am not on the right path. On Monday I am going to meet with a local college and scheduling to get my GED, something I should have aquired before I even had my daughter. After that I plan to meet with a career counselor and try to determine what type of job I could excell in and become more productive and therefore more successful. I truly feel the reason I "job-hop" is because I am not satisfied with the jobs that I am settling for. I am not doing anything that I am passionate about and in turn I am not giving 100% of my dedication and skills. Eventually I become bored or unsatisfied with either the job or my performace and I move on to something new. New things are always exciting. So, in my search to find a promising career I am also finding myself. I am rekindling some of my old hobbies and enjoyments. I have found an inner peace by doing so. By doing things that make me happy, I am feeling better and more optimistic about the road that follows. I have also decided to help dig my mothers business out of the hole it is in. I went to college for marketing and business management and I feel I have not only the skills but the motivation that my mother lacks to pick this thing up off the ground. Her business was successful once upon a time. We need to get back on track. My mother has become increasingly depressed and has even started lockng herself in her bedroom again. Completely letting her business fall without even trying to fix it. She needs me. She needs something and I am the only one who is able and willing to help her. Now, on the Vegas topic. I have entered sweepstakes with trips to Vegas as grand prizes. I also have a birthday coming up and some family members have agreed to pitch in towards the trip. If I am able to find a descent job, it will be hard but I can manage to put away money slowly to finally purchase my trip. I need to be patient and stay on track or else I will not be able to achieve this. Alright, I think I said all I need to say in order to clear my head and get to sleep...I am stoked about this concert, 16 bands all of which are awesome! 13 hours of Miller-time! Oh I forgot to spout off about my divorce. So Gregg, my daughters father, agreed to help me with her tuition, but then there were excuses and then there were all of these "deals" and still the school has not seen a dime and I am two months behind. So now since I took him to child support hoping either the divorce or child support would go through by the beginning of the year, he is refusing to help because he thinks I'm out to get him. Anyways, so now I am frustrated about that. I think I will email him now and go to bed. hehe Nighty-night xxooxxChels