"And in the end, we're only alone if we choose to be alone."

Well, I can say that without a doubt, that I'll be in Las Vegas in Monday. Wow. I'm gonna have a busy week. Today- Laundry, Sunday- Packing, Monday through Wednesday???.....LAS VEGAS, BABY, YEAH! And THEN, on Friday, DISNEYLAND!!!!!! With a dear friend! And then I'll be spending that night at her house when we get back. So yeah, that's my schedule for this week! Its really awesome, because this, I guess, is our first year where we have ALL of Presidents week OFF! NO SCHOOL!!!!!!!! So, yeah! Ugh, SO! Its was Valentines Day on thursday, holyhell,.. Adn of course, I hated it. That's usually because I'm always alone on V. Day. I got very few stuff frm friends, and that's actually all that really matters. But one thing that actually MADE the day appear how I actually FELT, was that it was so. FUCKING COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And, stupid me! I didn't bring a jacket!!!!!!! I didn't think it was gonna rain! It just looked overcast! And, which really sucked, I didn't have ANY food money!!! So I'm running around(and shaking) to all my friends asking"Are you gonna eat that?". I even find one of my sisters and somehow manage her to give me the rest of her Pizza. Well, still not enough. So at sixth period, we're all done with our work, so I call my dad to come pick me up when schools out. He couldn't, he was working and had no one to cover, so he got my Aunt Deby to come! I get to his work and ask him if he could find someone to take me home, and my stepmom walks in. She's bitter, I'll give you that. Because on my way to Jeannettes(one of our families shops) one of the local barmen, Bruce, gives me a flower for V. Day. Its was real nice! So my binder is on the counter with my Rose on top, my step mom wakls in and says, "Even Kimmy got a freaking rose!"

Ok, I didn't exactly pay attention to what that meant at the time, but now that I thikn about it, how she said it REALLY pisses me the FUCK off..! So yaeh, she complaines to my dad and blahblahblah and somehow offers me a ride home. I ask her if she could do a favor for me and get me food and she(grudgingly, I might imply) says yes. (sigh) yeah, that night was ok. Boring, I might add. But enh, at least Vday was over.... So, the next day, I do NOT want to get up of course, and get to school. Ok, so this guy and I, Kevin, he is.....DAMN, he can be SO flipping HOTT! But he can be such a MANWHORE! He walks up to me, hugs me and says"Where were you yesterday? I didn't see you at all? I thought you were ignoring me, so I hung out with Mariah" Mariah is a REALLY cool girl, she's VERY stylish, but Kevin insists he doesn't LIKE her like that. She's 'just a friend'. But given HIS rep....Enh, who knows. But after he says that, he says, "I have something for you," and pulls our a single red rose. My heart, needless to saay, annoyingly skipped a few beats! I was touched! I was thinking, "Oh my god!!!!" Ugh.....Let's just say, he's got my attention again. But every time I smelt that rose, I got IMENSLY turned on EVERY, SINGLE, TIME! During class, I'd be smelling it and just fantasizing about him! It even pumped up the addreniline when I had my iPod with me. God, it seemed like just when I thought we were done, he got my attention, yet again...!