Paying members get to see closed circuit videos but if you are not a paying member then you have to do without. Fans are fans. I can't help being jobless, just like I can't help missing out. I still think if you are truly a Loyal, then who cares if you could afford to pay the $40 or $100 membership. I used to think that those who had to buy all the merchandise of any band, celebrity etc were just trying to gain status. I still think that to this day because what are you going to do when you grow out of someone and you got all this stuff with their name on it? What you thought was cool now is junk. It hurts not being part of what others see, just because you can't afford it. Anyways, I'm ranting. It's no wonder I am hardly here, though. I adore Criss but I can't afford him. And I see myself as an Ultimate Loyal Freak. I always will though.