AngelC's Blog
Death
May 2, 2009just a few lines about what am thinking about right now. u can comment if u want to.
Nobody can say when you will die. How would life be if you know when and how u would die? Boring I guess. But you would enjoy it. If someone says that u will die 2moro you will do everything u ever wanted to do in your last few hours. I would do it. Whatever happen. Regardless of the consequences. What would I do? Thats a simple answer. I would fetch my whole money and book a flight to anywhere. I just want to be alone. No friends and no family. Y, u ask urself? bcuz I have no real friends I want to be with and y without my family? Bcuz I havent a good realtionship to them. How can it be? No good reationship to the family? Simple. Bcuz I hate them. They go on my nervs every single day. A friend would say that they r irresponsible. I think they r but I dont care. Thats actually what I want. I want they to let me do whatever I want. Thats family 4 me. But I'm used to it. I live in a fucking small town in the middle of nowhere. U dont need to know where it is. All u need to know is that I have no friends. So am all alone. Sometimes it sucks. Sometimes I want to be near to someone. To hug someone. I have so much love to give. Y is life so unfair? Can somebody give me an answer to my question? I want to know. Y is life so unfair? I want to be dead. How would it be if am not coming home? Would life goes on 4 all the others without taking a note? I hope so. I dont want to break hearts. I dont want them to cry. I dont want to. But i guess I have to. How many people would come to my cave? Not much. I really want to be dead. But how do I want to die? Good question. Honestly I havent thought about it yet. Fast or slow. What would be better? All I want to is to die in the arms of my dear darling. I want to die with him. My life would never be the same without him. I would never be the same person. Everybody say that that would be normal but what do I know about it? Nothing, thats it. I know nothing. But what I know is, thats true. Nobody would be the same when u lose a loved person. There will be a big gap in ones heart which no one can every refill. In ur life come people and then they go. They leave u alone. Everything what stay is the pain which u will never forget. The time by itself cant heal it. The pain will stay forever. What makes life worth for living? The moments in which u r happy I guess. Short and rare moments. I dont have such moments. Except 4 the last month which I spent with my hon. The time i spent with him was the best time I've ever had. I would do everything 4 him. The moments in life. Keep them in mind. U dont know when u will have such a time again in ur life. Enjoy! Hope I see u again on my side. If i dont die before i will write again.